1-2 Dream a little dream

Dream a little Dream.

If you could have a Wishlist.

Note If you could why couldn't you have one, of course you can have a wishlist. Unless for just a little while you forgot you knew how, better yet you basically banished the idea all together.🤦🏼‍♀️ Sometimes we humans do, say and believe the weirdest things, especially regarding the story we tell ourselves to survive.

Long story short sometimes in life when we have all the things we want, and for whatever reason life turns upside down. When we figuratively get back up, get a new plan, sometimes it's really hard to determine just how to do that again. Especially in cases where everything you thought you knew about life, even just your life, was not as it seemed. I've always subscribed to "Write your own story, or someone else will".

However I didn't realise that sometimes everything in your story gets re-written whether you were ready for it or not. When that happens it is easy to get lost in parts of the chapters of revival, to the point where chapters that potentially should of/could of been just that a short chapter that involved a critical lesson in your personal growth. Well sometimes these chapters get drawn out into lengthy sagas, generally because we refused to accept some obvious truth for that period.

My point is I think these chapters are lessons in helping us determine what we don't want, what we won't put up with, we we don't actually need in our life. For me personally some of these chapters definitely ended up turning into volumes. I think working out the dont want part is easy in comparison to working out again what we do want....... 

Seek and you shall find, Ask and you shall receive, Law of Attraction etc.... 

I strongly believe in all of the above. BUT!!!!

How do are they supposed to work, when you don't know what you want anymore? 

Because for so long you silenced what your heart wants, because it took so long to heal when what it wanted no longer wanted you.

But you did Heal, you are healing, and your heart is still beating, so its time to figure out what it wants in life, love, adventures, home, family and all the things that go with it.

Where to even start 🤔. The thing I find these days, is there is just sooooo much of EVERYTHING. I used to love going online and internet shopping but now more often than not, I get so overwhelmed and distracted and go in so many different directions I often end up not buying anything at all. 

So my plan is to start essentially a Wish List with all sorts of categories of things I like or spark my interest for me and my medium size humans. A shopping list/ vision board of places, and pieces that spark joy. Then at some point I will cull them to something more realistic.. haha maybe...